a slow death, viewed through sms

from: mdc
date: 26.03.2005
time: 2:31pm

k better but still in ccu. More consious, knows what's going on. Trying to communicate via sign lang and writing notes! He wud talk if not for all the tubes. MDC.

from: aj
date: 28.03.2005
time: 5:37pm

k a bit better. still in ccu. Off the ventilator. he is tired and very depressed. No will to be cheerful. MDC.

from: aj:
date: 29.03.2005
time: 1:59pm

Jus spent an hour w K at CCU. He habiskan his lunch n was v. chatty n alert. He is lookg gud. Left him a book 2 read. Just got this from JAS.

from: mdc
date: 29.03.2005
time: 8:42pm

K continues to mend. Eating and talking. still in ccu. Might go to ward 2moro. Tq for so much love and prayers. MDC

from: mdc
date: 30.03.2005
time: 5.53pm

K out of ICU. Back in Kenanga ward room 17. Better but not quite out of the woods. MDC.

from: mdc
date: 16.04.2005
time: 2:18pm

Can visit K. Sat and sun 12.30-7 Wad Perubatan 1, 6fl. bed 16. HUKM in cheras. Much better. MDC.

from: mdc
date: 26.04.2005
time: 8:11am

k transferred to UH last night. Blood clot in left leg. Vascular surgeon here. Going for Angio now. Then...? Please pray like you have never prayed before. This could be very bad. MDC

from: aj
date: 24.04.2005
time: 6:52pm

Outside the angio unit. The news is guardedly encouraging. The ballooning has allowed blood into the lower leg and they are leaving the tube in overnight to administer a drug which will hopefully dissolve clot, another angio tomorrow. this mes is from MM.

from: aj
date: 26.04.2005
time: 11:45pm

KJ was transfd 2 UH last night. Blood clot n left leg. Did angio 2day n now tkng bld thining drugs..But procdre not compltly sucsful. Might hve 2 do angio again maybe... AJ

from: mdc
date: 27.04.2005
time: 5:54pm

Op went fine. But lungs are not so good. And fear of bleeding cos of heparin. So far so good. Keep praying for good post op recovery.

from: aj
date: 27.04.2005
time: 6:16pm

K just came out of surgery... with local anesthesia they cut out the clot. Great news but now his lungs are not doing so good. But on the whole situation is better now than it was this morning. Please keep prayers coming. AJ.

from: ff
date: 28.04.2005
time: 11:04am

Hey, KJ in critical condition in UH. This is it. It is just a matter of time. Lots of love from the frontline.

from: aj
date: 28.04.2005
time: 11:13am

K is going... A few hours maybe. UH, 4th flr, cardiac unit.

poetry to go

from: sm
message: 118, 117, 116 /120
date: 30.10.2004
time: 8:13pm
type: text message

Recently read. Like ths alot, tho its a poem btr suitd 2bein heard

ON A NITE OF THE FULL MOON - Audre Lorde

out of my flesh tht hungers/
& my mouth tht knws/
comes the shape i am seekin/
for reason./
The curve of yr waitin body/
fits my waitin hand/
yr breasts warm as sunlite/
yr lips quick as young birds/

btwn yr thighs the sweet/
sharp taste of limes./

Thus I hold u/
frank in my heart's eye/
in my skin's knwng/
as my fingers conceive yr flesh/
I feel yr stomach/
movin against me.

Before the moon wanes again/
v shall come 2gtr.

& i wd b the moon/

spoken ovr yr beckonin flesh/
breakin against reservations/
beachin thot/
my hands at yr high tide/
ovr & under inside u/
& the passin of hungers/
attended, forgotten.

Darkly risen/
the moon speaks/
my eyes/
judgin yr roundness/
delightful.

friendship better than family

from: mdc
message: 116/121
date: 07.01.2005
time: 7:45pm
type: text message

no but we will order room service & drink lotsa beet & wine & talk cock & lie around & savour our love & sweet friendship that is better than family. XXXX

post #1

my phone is slowly dying from the weight of messages i can't bring myself to delete.

they track small chapters in my life. flirting with all manners of girls, the slow process of a friend's death, and so on.

this is a completely indulgent repository of my correspondence.